Can't take my eyes off of you! Well my Mind's eye...

Singing: "Can't take my eyes off of you... [Verse 1] You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off of you You'd be like Heaven to touch I wanna hold you so much At long last love has arrived And I thank God I'm alive You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off you [Verse 2] Pardon the way that I stare There's nothing else to compare The sight of you leaves me weak There are no words left to speak But if you feel like I feel Please let me know that it's real You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off you [Chorus] I love you, baby, and if it's quite alright I need you, baby, to warm the lonely night I love you, baby, trust in me when I say: Oh, pretty baby, don't bring me down, I pray can't take my eyes off you,cant take my eyes off you, cant take my eyes off you frankie valli and lauryn hill, can take my eyes off you,cant talk my eyes off you cant take my eyes off you frankie valli and lauryn hill lyrics, i love you baby and if it's quite alright i need you baby, i can't take my eyes off you,can't take my eyes off you lyrics, Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay And let me love you, baby, let me love you [Verse 3] You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off you You'd be like Heaven to touch I wanna hold you so much At long last love has arrived And I thank God I'm alive You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off you [Chorus] I love you, baby, and if it's quite alright I need you, baby, to warm the lonely night I love you, baby, trust in me when I say: Oh, pretty baby, don't bring me down, I pray Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay And let me love you, baby, let me love you [Chorus] I love you, baby, and if it's quite alright I need you, baby, to warm the lonely night I love you, baby, trust in me when I say: Oh, pretty baby, don't bring me down, I pray Oh, pretty baby, now that I found you, stay And let me love you, baby, let me love you https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZWrhh8iMvhE This post is for my Love JT 1 Corinthians 13:1-13 The Way of Love 13 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 And if I have aprophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, bso as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 cIf I give away all I have, and dif I deliver up my body to be burned,1 but have not love, I gain nothing. 4 eLove is patient and fkind; love gdoes not envy or boast; it his not arrogant 5 or rude. It idoes not insist on its own way; it jis not irritable or resentful;2 6 it kdoes not rejoice at wrongdoing, but lrejoices with the truth. 7 mLove bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, eendures all things. 8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For nwe know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but owhen the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For pnow we see in a mirror dimly, but qthen face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as rI have been fully known. 13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love. How Do I Love Thee? (Sonnet 43) Elizabeth Barrett Browning 1806 – 1861 How do I love thee? Let me count the ways. I love thee to the depth and breadth and height My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight For the ends of being and ideal grace. I love thee to the level of every day’s Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light. I love thee freely, as men strive for right. I love thee purely, as they turn from praise. I love thee with the passion put to use In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith. I love thee with a love I seemed to lose With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath, Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death. and then there is the love letter #Poem that I wrote for you and gave you a while back. I was going to put it in here but couldn't find it where I have saved it so it is probably on one of the saved CD's that I have made to reduce the many files on this computer. I will have to go and find it later. #anothertodolistitemanotherday There are so many ways I can challenge that Biblical 1 Corinthians chapter 13 but I will agree that that may be what love should be but as he went to correct those people and bring them back unto the fold then his guidance is what they needed and he painted a lovely picture. The first and biggest thing that I find fault in but again that was him and not me. Speaking for me I have grown up but in many ways I have not put away childest things. I refuse to gwow up with my Peter Pan Syndrome. I do not want to grow up and lose the magic that is the beauty of a child. I choose to look at the world through my rose colored glasses. Not to misunderstand and think that I do not see the world as it is with all the ugliness and unkindness that it possesses but I see what it could be especially if you look for the beauty in others. "I beg your pardon, I never promised you a rose garden..." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GEIUt_huTwc I beg your pardon I never promised you a rose garden Along with the sunshine There's gotta be a little rain sometime When you take you gotta give so live and let live or let go Oh-whoa-whoa-whoa I beg your pardon I never promised you a rose garden I could promise you things like big diamond rings But you don't find roses growin' on stalks of clover So you better think it over Well, if sweet-talkin' you could make it come true I would give you the world right now on a silver platter But what would it matter So smile for a while and let's be jolly Love shouldn't be so melancholy Come along and share the good times while we can I beg your pardon I never promised you a rose garden Along with the sunshine There's gotta be a little rain some time I beg your pardon I never promised you a rose garden I could sing you a tune and promise you the moon But if that's what it takes to hold you I'd just as soon let you go But there's one thing I want you to know You better look before you leap, still waters run deep And there won't always be someone there to pull you out And you know what I'm talking about So smile for a while and let's be jolly Love shouldn't be so melancholy Come along and share the good times while we can I beg your pardon I never promised you a rose garden Along with the sunshine There's gotta be a little rain sometime I beg your pardon I never promised you a rose garden I can't promise you a rose garden and that is exactly why I won't say yes every time you ask me to marry you. I am just a foolish old fart or hopeless romantic. Please let me correct that I am a romantic, hopeless does not even fit into the picture. I love to love you baby... needless to say there goes my spacey brain again with another love song from my past hahahaha that's it I just love love songs. I love making love to you and I will take it anytime I can get it. I am not jealous nor profess to say that I own you. Slavery is totally not something I belive in although being your love slave might be sorta fun and kinky... I am ADHD and find it hard to focus at times and stay to the point but then: What the hell! writing a journal is not for the straight forward approach but can be just to jot down your thoughts at the time of writing. We talked this morning and I told you that I used to write them on blogspot. You wanted the address and that I will send to you after I finish for today. Like I said I had gotten away from posting and had been keeping a journal where I responded to the Sayings of Buddha. That one is in the library. I got the journal as a gift back when I turned 60 in 2014 but didn't finish it till 2022. Hahaha I didn't do it daily which reminds me...I didn't take my meds after breakfast so I just took them. Oh Well! If I die today I will die a happy man since I got laid today! Oh No TMI! [ELPHABA] I'm limited Just look at me I'm limited And just look at you You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda So now it's up to you For both of us Now it's up to you [GLINDA] I've heard it said That people come into our lives For a reason Bringing something we must learn And we are led To those who help us most to grow If we let them And we help them in return Well, I don't know if I believe that's true But I know I'm who I am today Because I knew you Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun Like a stream that meets a boulder Halfway through the wood Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you I have been changed for good [ELPHABA] It well may be That we will never meet again In this lifetime So let me say before we part So much of me Is made of what I learned from you You'll be with me Like a handprint on my heart And now whatever way our stories end I know you have re-written mine By being my friend Like a ship blown from its mooring By a wind off the sea Like a seed dropped by a skybird In a distant wood Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you [GLINDA] Because I knew you [BOTH] I have been changed for good [ELPHABA] And just to clear the air I ask forgiveness For the things I've done You blame me for [GLINDA] But then, I guess We know there's blame to share [BOTH] And none of it seems to matter anymore [GLINDA & ELPHABA] Like a comet pulled from orbit Like a ship blown from its mooring As it passes a sun By a wind off the sea Like a stream that meets a boulder Like a seed dropped by a bird Halfway through the wood In the wood [BOTH] Who can say If I've been changed for the better? I do believe I have been changed for the better [GLINDA] And because I knew you [ELPHABA] Because I knew you [BOTH] Because I knew you I have been changed For good Thanks Babe, for the changes you have made in my life. More changes to come, For Good!

Thanks be to God the Father!

Thanks be to God the Father! Thank you for the Gift of Life that you have given me along with the many blessings which it includes: All of the wonderful sisters, brother and family, people that I have met along this journey, that have inspired me, stretched me to the limits, challenged me, loved me and encouraged me. All of them have helped me to realize how meaningful and beautiful my life truly is. Bless them Lord! “Angels we have heard on high singing: Praise to the Father, to the Son and to the Holy Spirit, For unto you this day a Child is Born!” Thank you Lord God Almighty for this blessing that you have given me because of your love for me and the grace that I have been given to know and feel this wonderful gift. You allowed me to know first hand the beauty of my beautiful children. Like you, as a Father, you watched your Son grow up and go through all the ups and downs of life. I got to watch Danielle grow to a beautiful woman with all the ups and downs that life has thrown her. At the wedding of Cana it was a beautiful feeling to see your Son, Jesus Christ, change the water into wine. For the wedding in Corpus Christi I got to see the beauty of how you filled a part of her heart with the Love of her life, Jim. I could see the joy she felt until she reminded me of the beauty of Butterfly Kisses that we shared and then she started my eyes to whine. I have not lost her but share in her happiness and like you we both watch and continue to see them grow and prosper. Like you who lost your Son and it so angered you that the skies went dark and the Earth shook. I felt the anger and pain in losing my child, Lindlee, the night was dark and my world shook but as your Son prayed Father forgive them. I felt no anger with others but in my self that I had no control over what happened as your hands were tied, so were mine. Thy will be done! This was a lesson that I had to learn and pray to accept the gift that I had for a time and then allow her to return to your side in Heaven. You now know that beauty that I will share one day. The gift of the Holy Spirit allows me to feel that comfort: to accept those things I cannot change and to change those that I can. Thank you for making me in your image as Lord of Heaven and Earth, Creator: You have given me your eyes that I might see the beauty in all things great and small. You have given me your hands that I might create beautiful things and things that might not be so beautiful or maybe just in my eyes, for beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. You have given me your voice that I might sing the praises of your name and all the Glories of the Heavens and Earth and I pray they are not as the clanging of gongs for though you have given me languages of men and that understanding lets me speak with the Love of God that they may hear. Even with all the knowledge and wisdom you have blessed me with; let my faith be in thee or I have nothing. So Lord for this Father’s Day I ask for nothing, for you have given me everything!

100 questions and answers you should ask to get to know me!

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up. a. Dil Chata Hai b. March of the Witch Hunters c. Chori Chori Chupke Chupke d. Down Presser Man e. Kaun Disa Mein f. Aguas de Marco 2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Jesus Christ 3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, and give me line 17. Broiled flounder with lemon 3oz Meat o carbs. 4) What do you think about most? Sex 5) What does your latest text message from someone else say? I’ll shower and be over in 20, text me when you are ready. 6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on? Without clothes unless I am around others. 7) What’s your strangest talent? Cooing like a pigeon and other animal sounds I make. 8) Girls…. Have nice eyes and boobs; while Boys…. Turn me on more because I like the sex and don’t have to worry about babies. 9) Ever had a poem or song written about you? Yes, Paul Bryant sang a song about me at a coffee shop in Denton. 10) When is the last time you played the air guitar? Probably when I was playing with the children and playing the Air guitar on their side to make them squirm. 11) Do you have any strange phobias? I do not like heights but not a phobia. 12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? Yes, my finger. 13) What’s your religion? Christian but a spiritualist too. 14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? Working in the yard or walking. 15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Behind the camera, I like to observe rather than be observed. 16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? I don’t do favorites but one I like is Los Tigres del Norte. 17) What was the last lie you told? Probably telling someone I liked something when I really didn’t. 18) Do you believe in karma? Yes, and it usually comes back to bite me in the ass. 19) What does your screen name mean? Chimera Dream Warrior . I am always battling against my two Sides. I am part Cherokee so dream warrior and the Chimera is a Creature with more than one nature or species. Male/female, good/bad, English/Spanish, Aquarius/Pisces. Some of my two sides. 20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? Trying to please others. 21) Who is your celebrity crush? I have to think, still don’t pick favorites, but Taylor Lautner is one that comes to mind. 22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Yes 23) How do you vent your anger? It is under control but I used to be like my mother and throw things. 24) Do you have a collection of anything? Shot glasses, owls, turtles 25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Video chatting is more fun. 26) Are you happy with the person you’ve become? Yes, but I still have room to grow. 27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? Emory board; Koel 28) What’s your biggest “what if”? I won the lottery. 29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Yes, Yes 30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. Nothing, the window 31) Smell the air. What do you smell? Bamboo sent candle 32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to? An outhouse 33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast? West coast 34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender? Jennifer Lopez 35) To you, what is the meaning of life? Antes que te cases mira lo que haces. 36) Define: Art. Aesthetic beauty: The branch of philosophy that deals with the nature, expression, and perception of beauty, as in the fine arts. 37) Do you believe in luck? Yes, if I didn’t have bad luck I wouldn’t have any luck at all. 38) What’s the weather like right now? Cold 39) What time is it? 8:51 pm 40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? Yes, the question is how many times have I crashed? 41) What was the last book you read? Out of Oz 42) Do you like the smell of gasoline? No 43) Do you have any nicknames? Lana Jonez , Wool, Maestro 44) What was the last movie you saw? Tarzan 45) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? Cracked 4th & 5th lumbar vertebrae 46) Have you ever caught a butterfly? Yes 47) Do you have any obsessions right now? No, I don’t get obsessed 48) What’s your ? What is life like after death? 49) Ever had a rumor spread about you? Yes, 50) Do you believe in magic? Yes, Never grow too old to believe in magic. 51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? No 52) What is your astrological sign? Born on the cusp of Aquarius and Pisces 53) Do you save money or spend it? Both but save more than spend it. 54) What’s the last thing you purchased? Groceries 55) Love or lust? Well I am working on Lust till I find Love. 56) In a relationship? No 57) Are you a virgin? Not since I was 10. 58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue? Hell No 59) Where were you yesterday? At home in bed with a Dark Knight. 60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? Yes, a flamingo planter that is holding pencils. 61) Are you wearing socks right now? Not hardly I only wear them when I wear shoes for going out in public. 62) What’s your favorite animal? Owls 63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? Kill them With kindness. 64) Where is your best friend? Jericho, NY 66) What is your heritage? Irish American 67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM? Masturbating 68) What do you think is Satan’s last name? Angelis 70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? Of course I am with my Narcissus complex 71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? I go to work because I can’t swim anyway and the dog swims better than I do. 72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? Probably after it sinks in on me. b) What do you do with your remaining days? Just what I do everyday, enjoy life. c) Would you be afraid? I am not afraid to die, I have lived a full life and at my age my days are numbered. Gracias a Dios! 73) You can only have one of these things: trust or love? Love 74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? Somewhere over the rainbow. 75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number? 9043 76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? Sex and compatibility 77) How can I win your heart? You can’t unless you are drop dead gorgeous and damn good in bed. 78) Can insanity bring on more creativity? It hasn’t yet, I get more insane daily and yet no more creative. 79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? Maybe not the best but retirement takes the top of the list right now. 80) What size shoes do you where? 9 81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone? I haven’t set down to write it out yet artesano, bilingual 82) What is your favorite word? At any rate 83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word: heart. attack 84) What is a saying you say a lot? Entre el dicho y el hecho hay un gran trencho. 85) What’s the last song you listened to? You’ll be in my heart 86) Basic question: what’s your favorite co lor/colors? Black, blue 87) What is your current desktop picture? 2015 Year of the Ram 88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? Thou shalt not kill 89) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? How I really feel about you. 90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do? Wake myself up it’s another weird dream. 91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? To grow wings and fly. 92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? Right now the sex I had yesterday. 93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? I’ve probably forgotten more of them than I care to remember. 94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? Ricky Martin or Enrique Iglesias 95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? Europe 96) Do you have any relatives in jail? No 97) Have you ever thrown up in the car? All the time 98) Ever been on a plane? Yes, longest for 22 hours 99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say? Jesus is Lord! 100) Give me your top 5 favorite blogs on Tumblr. a. http://betomartinez.tumblr.com/ b. jocknights.com c. jockvideos.com d. hexdecimal.tumblr.com e. http://dominicanmen.tumblr.com

a good knight

Well last night I had a good knight, or rather he had me. It has been way too long. Not as long as it has been since my last post but I write more on Facebook. Then that may not be true. I got mad at them and deleted my whole account. That lasted about 3 days and then I started a new one. They just had too much information or rather I was being bombarded by the stupid ads that were connected to all the cookies. At any rate, the dark knight is 31, 6'7", 250 lbs, 37 w. Athletic, Black, Hairy Body, Mix,says he is 12" but I estimate more of 9"and entertained me for 3.5 hrs. He says he will return, who knows, it would be nice, but I will not hold my breath, although I believe he will be. Of course the first thing I did was to inform my friend in New York, poor boy I brag too much. His problem is wanting a relationship, me I just want the sex. What am I doing again? bragging... sorry but I was waiting on the songs to shuffle through I tunes for my next blog item on a questionnaire that I thought about doing but I have to do the first things first, get my mind off of sex. Hard to do and I just turned 61 3 days ago. Nice birthday surprise. The only difference between men and boys is the size of their toys. Afterall little boys like Batman and I like My Dark Knight.

Year's beginning and now it is Marching on to a new life, counting down the days.

Well we were off today because of another sleet storm on Sunday. I did my taxes after doing my friend's taxes over the phone from NY to TX on Sunday. Too much information and yet not of any importance. January went by and it was wonderful. I got my baby married to the man she loves and they are happy. She tried to make me lose it when we had the Daddy daughter dance she chose Butterfly Kisses. My friend from NY came down and had a hard time getting there because of that sleet and his flight turned around and stranded him in Houston. He caught a ride with a couple of ladies so he made it down a few hours late but still a day before the wedding. We made it through all the fun and he and my ex hit it off well. Now she wants to plan a vacation with just the three of us. I told them both they were too much alike and I could not handle that they would drive me crazy. Of course he and I smoked and drank like crazy as we always do when we get together. Then February came and went with only one exciting thing. I joined the 60's club on my birthday and I also had to let them know, if I was going to get paid for my local days, by March 1 so I did it on my birthday. This was my gift to me. Come to find out I only had 8 days of local days so it wasn't worth it. I have like 95 state days that I will lose if I don't take them. I am too responsible to take them. I will finish the job I set out to do, then walk away a better person! No one will get in my way! I know the way, the truth and the life! RESPECT YOURSELF ENOUGH TO WALK AWAY FROM ANYONE OR ANYTHING THAT NO LONGER SERVES YOU, GROWS YOU, OR MAKES YOU HAPPY. This was something I found and posted on my facebook today. I just read the weekly newsletter that tells us to win the kids over but not by intemidation or threats. Baby them some more. They already run the school and no one does anything. That tells me that 26 years in Dallas and 34 total years is enough and now I retire and if I choose look for a new career. I am looking forward to retirement.

Dear Family and Friends, Well 2013 is almost over. The snake will be gone and then the year of the horse. That is my year and the 5th cycle of the zodiac so it should be a great year. Last year was not so bad with the announcement of the wedding on the 16th of December, 2012. So after that was only left to make all of the plans. I told my daughter that I would give her so much for the wedding but to leave me out of the planning. That job she and her mother fought over. Even after me warning her to let Danielle plan it and only offer to assist when she asked for her help. But of course, that was not meant to be because someone had expectations of what it should be and yet one had expectations of what she wanted so here in lays the dilemma. I went down over spring break to help her get unpacked from the move into a bigger apartment. I also took down the headboard from her bed that I had redone. In July I went up to New York to visit my best friend and his family. He tolerated me for 9 days and we had a great time, I have to admit it was my favorite trip to NY. School started in August with some big changes. I spent the last year over at Eduardo Mata as the Computer Lab teacher in charge of programs such as I-Station and Reasoning Minds. We opened the brand new building for O.M. Roberts and I got placed back in the 5th grade as a Bilingual teacher of Reading and Social Studies. It was not what I was expecting. I had these same kids with a few additions back in the 3rd grade and now I have to get them shaped up for the STAAR test in the spring. It has been a rough year with only 5 of the original teachers and 5 of the original staff members. Now we have a new principal and she has 3 new assistant principals and depending on whom you ask you get a different response. It is like the blind leading the blind. They say in Spanish “En la tierra de ciegos el tuerto es rey.” which means that in the land of the blind the Cyclops is king. It is a good thing that I know how to use my third eye and seek guidance from the man upstairs. We have made it through the first semester and retirement is looking better and better. I feel sorry for those that are just starting out and don’t have that option. So in January I am flying to Corpus Christi for a wedding and I have been told to behave myself, we shall see, but I don’t think it is me that we have to worry about. Then we shall see what the rest of the new year holds. I hope you have had a good year, a very Merry Christmas, and a Most Prosperous New Year for you and yours.

Viva la Indepencencia

Well today is the 16th of Sept. The celebration of the Mexican Independence and the 6th anniversary of getting the keys to my new house. Now it still seems new and a nice place to come home to after a long day at school. This school year is really interesting. Only ten original teachers and the 5 aides that were with us throughout. Many are talking already of not staying. Many are hoping things will change after the board finally decides what they will do over the super's violation of board policy and violation of his own contract. Many of us feel nothing will happen as does the super. The board has put the metting off till sat when they were supposed to meet on Thurs. now they will meet again next Thurs but no actions will be taken. We shall see. The new school has a principal and 3 assistants and everytime you ask a question then they do a nice little sidestep. Today I had to go in for a conference after a spot observation on Friday. It wasn't the best but they never are at the beginning of the year. That way they can say how much you have grown. Of course I could defend all I did and she was pleased with my work and complements me for steping up even though I didn't want 5th. yeah, yeah, yeah I've heard that before. Maybe 34 is the end of my teaching career. We shall see. Worked hard this weekend so I came home and did nothing today. Thinking about all the things I am not doing in the yard. We shall see. Thinking of destroying some of the things I built up and not working so hard, especially since the things are not growing. We shall look around and see what we are going to do. Right now it is time for bed. Just going to go rest and wait to see what tomorrow brings.

A lot on my mind but I don't want to do anything.

Today is Mija's birthday and like her Mom Mom I had to sing Las Mañanitas. She wants it recorded on her phone each year. I made her another video and posted it to her facebook page. She is spending her birthday with her intended. They are getting married in Jan and that should be an interresting wedding. But that is another story. Saw yesterday where the ex-boyfriend and his brother are going to be back in Pune to spend some time with the folks. Procrastinating because this is the first year I have felt like retiring from teaching. Not because of the kids but because of the new administration. We shall see.

No limit

1.Kissed a girl? Yes 2.Kissed a boy? YES 3.Had sex in public?YES 4.What’s your religion? catholic 5.What does your URL mean? my home place. 6.Reason you joined tumblr? PORN 7.Do you have any nicknames? Wool, Maestro 8.Do you like bubble bath? YES 9.Kissed in the rain? YES 10.Dyed your hair? YES 11.Soup or salad? Soup 12.Vegetable or meat? MEAT 13.Go out drinking? SOME TIMES 14.Smoke cigarettes? When I am around Tom. 15.Smoke weed? never 16.Do any hard drugs? never 17.Have you had sex today? last week 18.Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? YES 19.The relationship between you and the person you last texted? mija 20.Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? YES 21.Skipped doing homework to play a video game? DONT GAME. for other reason yes 22.Tried to commit suicide? no 23.The last time you felt broken? never broken a little down 24.Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt? YES 25.Do you have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend? had both but no one now 26.Do you have Long hair OR short hair? ITS SHORT NOW. 27.First thing you notice to a guy/girl? ON A GUY, HIS CROTCH, ON A GIRL HER boobs. 28.Do you sing in the shower? YES 29.Do you dance in the car? SOME TIMES. 30.Where were you yesterday? at home 31.Ever used a bow and arrow? YES 32.Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? family photos. 33.Do you think musicals are cheesy? no 34.Is Christmas stressful? YES. 35.Favorite type of fruit pie? pineapple 36.Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? teacher 37.Do you believe in ghosts? yes 38.Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? yes, when I was in a store in India 39.Take a vitamin daily? NO 40.Wear slippers? no 41.Wear a bath robe? WHEN THERE IS COMPANY IN THE HOUSE. 42.What do you wear to bed? NOT A BLESSED THING 43.Do you want to get married? no 44.Can you curl your tongue? no Relationship preference: 45.How many relationships have you had? LOVE 3 SEX I CANT COUNT THAT HIGH. 46.How can I win your heart? I don't give my heart away 47.what makes a great relationship? LAUGHTER, HONESTY, LOVE, GOOD SEX. YOU HAVE TO KEEP ROMANCE ALIVE. 48.Shy OR open? SHY 50.Religious OR non-religious? NOT RELIGIOUS, SPIRITUAL. 51.Caring OR non-restricting of you? CARING 52.Straight edge OR non-straight edge? STRAIGHT EDGE 53.Piercings OR no piercings? PIERCINGS 54.Tattoos OR no tattoos? TATTOOS 12 55.Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type? MOSTLY STAY AT HOME, There that should do it. I know this post was not directed especially at me but I figured What the hell. Want to know anything else? source: tumblr

Why do I keep trying when I know that it won't really matter.

Well I did it again, so here I am bitching again. I try to do these things to help the ex save money but I know she won't be happy with the finished product and it will wind up costing me much more that my time and effort is worth. She and my daughter saw a picture holder with the saying from a song by Rascal Flatts. She didn't even know the song or the reference but since my daughter is a fan she did and her fiancée is a truck driver. She liked it but they didn't get it. The next time I took her to Canton because she wanted to go. That was another waisted trip because she bitched the whole time and she still didn't get it, probably because it cost too much and she wanted me to do it but not screw it up and make it look better. In my eyes I did and spent too much in getting materials I didn't have but the extras I can use again on other projects. I took her to the store and told her about the things but she wanted the nails sunk in and wood filler put in which had to be painted and not stained so it wouldn't show and then it would also not be what she wanted. I was fighting a losing battle. Still I did the project and I know my daughter would still love it. I hung it in her(my daughter's) room, not the ex, if the ex decides it is acceptable. There it will stay because I told her about the problems in making it and what I did, but that is not what we talked about so she was pissed and I sent her a picture and told her that that is what it looks like, as is and if she doesn't like it she can get the one at Canton. That also makes me pissed and she wants to throw a shower for her and said we need to pay for it which means me but she is full of shit. If she wants it then she will have to throw it and I am out of the picture on that one since I told my daughter I would get her so much money for the wedding and that I have already done. My daughter understands but the ex does not know what ex means.

Year end in review

Well it has been too long. I have been too busy with all the changes at work and with familiars. The changes at work are just getting worse and who knows what is to come. I was changed to teaching a computer lab with three programs. Scheduling classes and the teachers don't want to let them go. The demands on them is so great that I am glad where I am but who knows how long that will last. I have completed things on schedule as I set for myself and nobody sets timelines for me. The boss threated to retire last year and now has informed us that she will be gone in January. What we get next nobody knows. What changes that will mean is open to supposition. I spent most of the summer with my daughter after her move. The rest was spent helping the ex find a new place and then getting her packed, moved and still helping unpack. I hope the next year will be for me but that will be debateable because in December before all the Christmas fun started she got engaged so I am now Father of the Bride to be. Christmas was fun with the ex fussing at me all the way because it was unsafe. I knew that and would have been happy to stay at home but the kid wanted to go and see the snow. Now she says they want a winter wedding so maybe Jan or Feb of 2014. Who knows. The plans haven't been made yet. Anyway we got her to the airport and back on her way home then I took the ex to work and I went home. On the way home I knew that things would be ok because as I was thinking and saying a thank you prayer to God for getting us through the holidays safely a white dove flew up in front of the car as I was driving. How amazing of a sign do I need. Thanks, Lord. What does the new year hold. I don't know. Last year I planned to join the gym so I would loose the weight but that did not hold. This year I will keep up the plan but without the gym, more walking, and better diet. I would like to travel again but we will see. I promissed an amount and after that I have to save up for a trip. More later.

Well work has been keeping me busy but I found time to do this last weekend after seeing one that Mija did. As she asked, "What are the whisps?" Lion's hair and lion's paws are the mark of the Chimera. Thus it is individually mine. Work is interesting because this year I am in a computer lab and staying busy although some people wonder if I do anything. Still making them look good which is my job. I am happy that the ex finally found a place and I no longer have to go with her searching for apartments. Her patience was running thin and she was giving up hope and as usual started taking it out on me. I kept my kewl but remembered why we got a divorce. I could no longer take the emotional abuse. Never was it intentional but neither was it necessary. Next project will be to create a costume for School Charater Dress up Day. I have to make it decent since it will be for school. Right now I am thinking about a new genie costume for the Tales of the Arabian Nights, one of my favorite books.

Remembering a poem I learned for poetry interpretation in high school. Edward Rowland Sill. 1841–1887 206. The Fool's Prayer THE ROYAL feast was done; the King Sought some new sport to banish care, And to his jester cried: "Sir Fool, Kneel now, and make for us a prayer!" The jester doffed his cap and bells, And stood the mocking court before; They could not see the bitter smile Behind the painted grin he wore. He bowed his head, and bent his knee Upon the monarch's silken stool; His pleading voice arose: "O Lord, Be merciful to me, a fool! "No pity, Lord, could change the heart From red with wrong to white as wool; The rod must heal the sin: but, Lord, Be merciful to me, a fool! "'T is not by guilt the onward sweep Of truth and right, O Lord, we stay; 'T is by our follies that so long We hold the earth from heaven away. "These clumsy feet, still in the mire, Go crushing blossoms without end; These hard, well-meaning hands we thrust Among the heart-strings of a friend. "The ill-timed truth we might have kept— Who knows how sharp it pierced and stung? The word we had not sense to say— Who knows how grandly it had rung? "Our faults no tenderness should ask, The chastening stripes must cleanse them all; But for our blunders—oh, in shame Before the eyes of heaven we fall. "Earth bears no balsam for mistakes; Men crown the knave, and scourge the tool That did his will; but Thou, O Lord, Be merciful to me, a fool!" The room was hushed; in silence rose The King, and sought his gardens cool, And walked apart, and murmured low, "Be merciful to me, a fool!" 40

Today I was supposed to be taking the ex for hand surgery but she rescheduled for later. I did not reschedule so I am staying home relaxing today. 5 more days of school with the kids and 6 days left total. Who knows what the next year may bring. I am waiting to see if I get a new contract on june 1st, the last day of school when they are supposed to be posted. New Super has started making changes through consulting contract till he is officially onboard June 2. He has already eliminated 86 positions at the top and created 36 new ones. We shall see.

I took a shot of the little section of my backyard that I call Mini Grand Prairie. It looks like a little prairie so I let the grasses grow around that little section where I have my pecan tree. The yard is looking much better with the new changes I have made this year. Me I am still about the same. I have slacked off the gym but I am still needing to make more changes.

I could add a full monty but no need it is posted in other places. Well I think I will continue to enjoy the morning outside listening to my iTunes while enjoying my morning mate and crocheting a scarf that I started for my sister at her request but I stopped because I was busy with other things. More updates later. I have slacked off of writing too.

New Year and New Me

Last year for my resolution I quit smoking, again. So far it is holding. On the first of February I joined the gym. I have been going 3 times the first week and 4 times the second. Getting myself adjusted to the new lifestyle. I want to get back on the weights and the doctor wants me to work on cardio. Right now a little of both at a slow pace.

Took the cat to see her mother since they, mom and the new boyfriend, wanted the two cats together. Not happening, Lucky was a real bitchcat with her fur on her back and tail like I have never seen her. Wow, she took out after that new cat. Very territorial and so she is back with me.

Wow, such a wild lifestyle, well I did make it back to the spa for a delightful evening after working out at the gym. It has been over a year and I was needing a good evening. It has been too long. I don't know what the deal is. These guys hit me up but then cancel out at the last minute.

Feliz Navidad

Well will it be a Christmas to remember. I think not. As usual they all have it planned out for me not that I would do any planning. I went Thanksgiving and it was ok. I baked pies and cupcakes which did not come out to my satifaction so I am not wanting to bake. Not in the mood. I have been sitting around crocheting as usual and still working on a last minute gift for Mija as I did last year. When will I learn. Went to Khols and bought all my gifts earlier so I have my shopping done early, wrapped at Thanksgiving break.

I revamped a lamp. As they said in Aladdin, "New Lamps for Old!" The ex had a lamp that was given to her parents but did not work so I took it apart, repainted it and rewired it. Bought new globes and it worked fine.

Still baby sitting the new grandkitten that my daughter took to replace her aging cat. But Dad had to take it home and train it not to bite. Working better but she still hasn't learned not to totally stop biting. She is still a kitten. Right now I said hello lazy cat and she crouched in her attack position.

Things are always changing. Go with the flow!

Well Dallas informed us that they would be taking measures to lower the debt that they and Gov. Perry caused by their mismanagement of funds. Not their words. They call it Leveling! They take from one school and send them to another school. If there is a position.

Yet Perry wants to ruin the whole country. I hope the people are not that stupid to vote for him. I sure won't. I made that mistake once which helped get him in office. I won't make that mistake twice. I'm not a republican anyway.

Back on track, the dreaded news came today and we lost 4 teachers, one was on leave and the other three were in tears along with many of the staff members. The boss lady was good enough to call some of her friends to see if they had some openings and they went for interviews today so probably have the positions if the District doesn't screw it around someway as usual.

The good news is that I still have a job. The bad news is that no more of the fun thing I was doing, I now will be heading back to the classroom to take the place of one of those teachers. I will be teaching Math and Science in the 3rd grade.

It will be interesting when the parents and kids find out that I am still a teacher and back in the classroom. For the last couple of years they have asked me, "You're not a teacher anymore?" I will always be a teacher, I just may not be in the classroom all of the time. We will see what this year holds and what next year may hold with the District still having a $30 million shortfall.

Closing

Well I am a very

happy camper and get to camp so much more peacefully now. I just signed the closing papers on my refinancing. I am getting a two percent lowering and a lowering on the payments as well. That just means when I send in the payments then I will have more of an effect on paying off the house sooner.
I still have to wait the three days that is required by law for me to change my mind, but why would I. I just want them to hurry and finish the closing before the first of the month when the amount will change with the old lender and before the government screws up my chances by not taking care of their debt ceiling. Just keeping my hands on what's important and my eyes set on the goal. Explosive joy.

Rent

If I can't own it can I just Rent it? I really love this video and this clip is good but there are so many good ones. I would love to have someone that I could cover with 1000 kisses.

Life goes on and sometimes we have to make the best of a bad situation. We have to go on even after we get dumped or lose the ones we love. La Vie Boheme is sometimes the life I like living although most of the time I just hide it under what others expect to see.

Love potion number 9

Well the new love prospect was supposed to call last weekend or maybe he thought I would call but I didn't so I guess that is it. He hasn't sent anymore emails and it was his actions of only answering my emails and only some of them. He didn't seem all that interested so I have no time to waste on him. I took my troubles down to Madame Rue.